Goddamned Day 7
Ok. What I would like to know is why I feel like shit. Shouldn't I feel better? My diet is awesome - always has been - I exercise regularly - always have done. I'm not smoking - no poison into me or anything like that. I'm drinking lots of water. I'm paying attention to the things that need attention. It's been a week. Why don't I feel better??
((sigh)) I did sleep much better last night - within the boundaries of what I would consider "normal" for me. I'm just so... irritable. I'm high strung to begin with, a person who has had to really get a handle on stress and anxiousness for health reasons. About six or seven years ago I wound up in the hospital, unable to draw a deep breath. I thought, of course, that there was something physiologically wrong with me, but there wasn't. I needed to let off some of the stress - thus ensued the exercise. And I can't lie, here. There's a certain immediate calming effect to smoking a cigarette. Since I've quit I've been much more likely to have shallow breathing (though nothing like before) and I'm a tad concerned that I haven't planned for how I will deal with increased anxiousness due to decreased nicotine. Suggestions, anyone??
I'm sure the whole irritable-snappish-pissed off-frustrated thing will handle itself - I'm just interested in what I can do, non-medically (e.g., I don't want to take medication) to relax and not be so anxious.