Monday, August 15, 2005

Today has SUCKED (Evening, Day 6)

Oh my God. Today has just fucking sucked (pardon my language). I'm not sleeping - it's not that I can't fall asleep, either. I'll fall asleep fine but then jerk awake, freaked out, not knowing what day it is or what time it is or whether or not I need to get up, etc. like every one to two hours. For the uninitiated, I don't do well on lack of sleep. At all.

And I FEEL LIKE SHIT. Aren't I supposed to feel better? I have a headache. I'm very mildly nauseated. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. What the fuck?

((sigh)) I don't even have what I need to post anything more than a bitch-fest.

25 Comments:

At 5:46 PM, Blogger mlk said...

Bitch away Rena!

I too am having problems sleeping. Fall asleep o.k. then I'm awake. I'm exhausted. But I'm not smoking. You aren't smoking either, right? :-)

Hopefully this too shall pass.

 
At 5:50 PM, Blogger RenaRF said...

NO Damnit. I'm not smoking. I haven't smoked at all. ((sigh))

Good for YOU. We're both bitchy exhausted women in the DC area. Watch out.

 
At 5:53 PM, Blogger mlk said...

LOL We should use this bitchiness for good, not evil. :-)

On quitnet, I did post a link with the quit symptoms, which sounds like you've got. I know it sucks right now, but in the long run you'll be so much better for it.

 
At 8:10 PM, Blogger FARfetched said...

I can relate, at least some nights. Allegra keeps me awake; I got a prescription once and after the second night I put it away for good. I think some foods can do that to me as well, although I'm not sure if or which.

A good knock of rum is usually sufficient to treat a bout of insomnia.

 
At 9:02 PM, Blogger RenaRF said...

FAR... Funny you should choose Rum. I have a small container I brought back from Jamaica last November. I'm not much of a drinker, but I can sip at rum if needed.

Sleeping has always been an issue for me, but usually in falling asleep. This constant jerking awake in a near panic is just too much. I hate to self-medicate, alcohol or otherwise, but I need to do something no doubt.

Thanks for reading. ;-)

 
At 7:43 AM, Blogger FARfetched said...

Hey, Friday is rum & coke day for C&J'ers, right? And it's Friday on *some* planet. Jeez, you got to go to Jamaica? Lucky. The closest I get to Jamaica is the liquor store, where the spiced rum I've developed a taste for is only $7 a bottle.

Speaking of planets, to answer the question you left for me, the answer is Planet Georgia. ;-)

 
At 9:26 AM, Blogger RenaRF said...

Ah. Ok. And yes, we try to vacation somewhere warm in the late fall... :-) This year, however, we have to take a shorter Thanksgiving trip as I just started a new job. We're headed to Vegas. ;-)

 
At 3:59 PM, Blogger FARfetched said...

My mom lives in Florida, so we usually try to go visit her during the late fall/early winter. But if you want to come see my planet some time, feel free. ;-)

 
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At 1:28 PM, Blogger shawn said...

I'm on day 6 and feeling pretty good. The first few days were tough but all in all this has not been so bad. I think that after 20 years I finally have this thing licked. At night I take a couple of Advil PM's and that has kept me well rested. What I find most satisfying is that I am no longer paying a massively evil corporation to deal me a slow death. Strive on with diligence.

 
At 2:43 PM, Anonymous Karen said...

I'm on day six of quitting cold turkey. I spend far too much time thinking about smoking, but I know that will pass. As far Chantix, I tried it for a few weeks, and I absolutely hated it. It does too much to a person's brain, in my opinion. I'd rather tough it out and leave my brain's chemistry out of it!

 
At 2:46 PM, Anonymous SeanS said...

I tried Chantix, too, and couldn't stand the side effects.

 
At 9:01 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Crazy dreams from this.

 
At 9:40 PM, Blogger Austin D. said...

Well, today would have been day 6. I smoked 2 cigarettes: one @ noon, the other just after one pm. What a shitty addiction. Tonight is bound to be a restless as the one past.

 
At 11:11 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Day 6 too. Last night was awful. 3 and a half hours of losing my mind. But got thru it. I have to say, there is a LOT more time during the day now. I do like that. I've started to notice the times that I would stop and would have said, ok let's smoke. But then I quickly realize, oh yah, nope! So that's something I'm thankful for. Plus I'm trying to look at smoking as ignorant or low class or something with a bad stigma attached. That's helped only a tad, but a tad is better than nothing. Good luck and thanks for letting me talk.

 
At 9:50 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am on Day 6, feeling better at day time. I still have a difficult time at night, taking sleeping pills to sleep.

Doing it cold turkey, I hope the irritability goes away soon, before this cost me my marriage.

But one thing for sure, I will never ever have one puff !

 
At 10:45 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm on day six and am so irritable. Using patches. Not really craving them and am sleeping fine. Just cranky. Hope this passes!!!!

 
At 10:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your side effects are normal - see the book The Complete Master Cleanse by Tom Woloshyn for a start on some understanding of the body and why you are having such experiences. Although unpleasant, you should be happy with these effects as they are indications of how sick your bodies are now and how dependent you are on the nicotine. Your laments should not be directed in the context of smoking and to other smokers, but in the larger context of addiction and directed at those who truly understand good health. By that I mean NOT doctors and drug stores, but natural health and cleansing of your body. When you gain insight here, you will surely conquer this addiction.

 
At 2:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Day Six - so far, so good. I've smoked for 40 years! Tried quiting twice before. I am on Chantix. Seems to be working. Sure I get major cravings at times but I chew on a swizzle stick. Seems to help. As far as sleeping, ambien. Call your Doc and get some. You got to sleep!

 
At 9:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

day 5.!.smoked 24 yrs @ pack to 3/4a day. cold turkey after wed. bought a 20 pak for $11.67 and had 2 and watched the 18 slide into raging flames of garbage barrel into hell. eyes are stretched and I feel like I'm pulled out thin. have so much time and the nites are exhausting...damn coffin nails had a huge part in my day...my eyes are now open to this two faced friendship of cig companies...what i know now is that one who smokes is going to keep reaching for that cig no matter what...and the assh*le companies say oH nO it's not addictive!!! read the label, UNBELIEVABLE that it is even ALLOWED...Holy Sh*t! it's not worth the $ what they have done to us, wow eh! they couldn't care less about us and took every penny...so humanless and greedy. I wouldn't want to be them, answer for all the deaths & suffering of families come Jugement Day, that day is coming...it really is...

jimbo




 
At 10:03 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

RenaRF i noticed its been 7 years since you posted your message...are you totally nicotine free?
jimbo from canada

 
At 11:43 AM, Blogger Oneday said...

DAy six for me and it's getting easier. Day three was the worst for me. Am using Zyban and it's working well although I only sleep an hour or two at a time then I'm up for three or four hours. This is the 3rd or 4th time I've tried to quit and I think I've finally got it!

 
At 8:54 PM, Blogger SixthRomeo said...

If you need the tranquilizer in cigarettes, not smoking is NOT going to help you at all; unless you get a prescription for Valium before you start. Then you have the chance to go to jail for some nasty business because Valium makes people not give a crap and that is bad news.

 
At 4:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am OH-fficially RE-OPENING this 2005 blog! This is my 6th day of quiting cold turkey and I am NEVER smoking againg! 21 years of smoking and drinking (heavy) landed me 2 days in the ER and 4 days in bed. (6 total) I had, what i thought was a heart attack but, turned out to be a respitory infection in the lungs. I thought, what if that could have been a heart attack. No thanks! I want to live! So, Im on to day 7. good luck every one. post when i can. PS. no cravings after day 5. days 1, 2, and 3, and even 4, sukked giant ass!

 

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